I'm Busy, How About You?

This is a busy season; planning a wedding, working full-time, meeting with people to create a team of ministry partners, packing up my house for a new roommate, and trying to spend time with family and

friends. And in all of this busyness, I can almost feel the devil smiling slyly, trying to pull me off track. And completely honestly, he has succeeded some days. I get up early and I go to bed late just trying to make sure I get everything done, and some days I still feel like I’m just barely keeping my head above the water of the flood of things I have to get done.

As I flail about just trying to make sure I don’t miss something I picture the devil leaning forward, tenting his fingers and cackling as he convinces me I need to get all of these things done to be a good Christian and a good missionary and a good future wife and gently shushing me telling me “no no no no no, there is no time for you to rest and definitely no time for you to read your bible or pray”.

But I realized that even though all of these things I’m struggling to make happen are good things and are because of my love of God and desire to use my life serving Him, none of it is worth anything if I take my eyes off of him for a minute. Just like Peter walking on the water to meet Jesus, it’s the second I lose sight of Him and start to doubt His strength and ability that I sink.

It seems pretty obvious to me now that Satan uses busyness as one of his primary tools today, convincing us that we either just don’t have the time to seek God or that we are good enough on our own and don’t need to seek Him just right now… there will be time later but for now all the good things we are doing will make up for it.

But in getting lost in all that I need to get done, I realized I keep falling back into the same old patterns; trying to be good enough and do everything on my own. When in reality, I can’t do any of this on my own. The absolute only way I will ever accomplish anything worthwhile is by continually seeking God and growing closer to Him and becoming more like Him and less like me. And the only way to do that is to spend time with Him.

So I’m praying for myself and each and every one of you that God be the focus, even in the midst of unbearable busyness.

(Tess helps remind me with her cuteness to keep my priorities straight)